Friday
Mar122010
ramblings...
March 12, 2010 * * * * * Posted by: guest blogger 
A face from a dream of long ago showed up on the computer screen tonight...
So much time has passed, and that face is so much older now.
It's funny, I have so much inside, but I can't seem to let anything out. There's a block between my brain and the fingers that tap away at the keyboard. The thoughts and feeling are theirs, but the words just aren't attached to them yet. Like watching letters floating off a chalkboard in a classroom, wondering if they will form coherent words, sentences and paragraphs. What will they reveal?
Why?
Fragmented thoughts.
Bits and pieces of a torn photograph falling from my table. Every now and then I am able to grab hold, but question what will I be able to grasp at next? Will your face be one of those pieces?
A roller coaster ride through the past, present and future. Tasting, touching and feeling but only for a brief moment, still unable to make any sense out of the thought pattern which is slipping through my fingertips.
So many colors and textures of the mind, that form like a jigsaw puzzle with the last piece missing, yet there you still are, faint, that torn and faded photograph. Just when I think I have seen the last of you in my minds eye, just when I think I have lost you completely your face appears again. All of those overwhelming feelings and dreams haunt me once again. The memory is like a scrapbook with some of the pages missing. Making me search deeper within trying to remember it like it was, and not how I wished it could have been. It's only my blue world...
(Note: this is something I wrote in May of 1993, that I happened to find while looking for something else. What is it about? I really don't know...perhaps it was just a dream.)
Reader Comments (11)
From 1993? Wow, Sharon. When I see something like that from awhile back, I either remember immediately or have no clue whatsoever. All of it is dreamlike and makes you wonder what hides deep within our subconscious. It sure fits your image perfectly, which is astonishing.
Love how you paint this memory with both your words and your hauntingly beautiful image. Because you've kept this for all these years..it must carry some great and perhaps unknown significance. Beautifully written!!!
"in my mind's eye" is truly one of my favourite expressions. everything i remember is saved in my mind's eye, i am a visual person and i my memories are torn photographs. i love this post. great job.
Everyone is occasionally haunted by something from the past. Sometimes we can identify it, and sometimes it remains an ethereal
longing of a moment we passed by. I have many such moments, and I welcome them. Farmergal
Your phrase : “It’s funny, I have so much inside, but I can’t seem to let anything out” resonates very much with me. In my head I think of all the brilliant things I can write about on my blog, but when I write my posts I struggle and the end result is always flat and cold I believe. It is very hard for me – of course it is harder because English is not my first language. But, after reading what you wrote in 1993 I think that you certainly can share beautiful bits of feeling and atmosphere in your writing. It reads as if you think about a long lost love – maybe – whatever it is about it is hauntingly beautiful.
As the others have already said, Sharon, a hauntingly beautiful piece, both your words and your image, which complements it so well. Whether you think so or not, you do have a gift with words, and there is no doubt about your gift with images.
and so worthy of saving -- treasured thoughts. I love the mysterious feel to your photo.
I was very moved by your words. As time goes by, those memories that were once at the forefront of our minds, slowly fade. But, even though the memory is fuzzy, you can still recall that it was something spectacular in your life at the time.
Thoughts about an old lover? Wondering what might have been? Your image and words evoke that mood and feeling to me. Hauntingly beautiful....
Love the mood you paint with your words and picture Sharon.
beautiful post!