Thursday
Jun172010
Brand New Endings
June 17, 2010 * * * * * Posted by: guest blogger 
“though no one can go back and make a brand new start, anyone can start from now and make a brand new ending.”
~annonymous
I feel like I am always waiting. Waiting for the right time, the right person, the right camera, the right picture. Waiting to lose that pesky 50 pounds. But that’s another post. Probably a long one...
Then my little voice says “Who do you think you are? An artist? Ha! A photographer? Ha Ha!”
And in the past I listened to that voice.
Recently my family has relocated and Hubby started a whole new career. Something completely different, something that demands he step outside of his comfort zone.
So, I decided that with this move, I could start fresh. Reinvent myself. Become a new me. Make a new ending.
In doing so it does require that I let go of some fears. Fears that have been holding me back. Fears that also keep me comfortable. If I don’t put myself out there because I’m afraid to, then I can’t get hurt. Except that I do. Get hurt.
It’s interesting how I allow my past to determine my future. I believe that it’s my fear that keeps me from growing and changing and becoming something great. Fear keeps me looking in the past for the answers of the future. Fear allows my past to write my future.
But I can face my fear. I can turn away from my past and face forward. Turn my face to the warmth of what lies ahead for me.
I can look back on my past fondly and know that I’ve learned from my mistakes. Then I can boldly step out and up. Yes I will make mistakes, but they can be new and different ones.
It’s in my power to let it all go.
I’ve recently learned that if I pretend hard enough that I can in fact be artistic enough, wise enough and funny enough. That can become my reality.
It’s not easy. I have to work on this daily. Every day I have to make the choice to start with a blank slate and step forward, not backward. Some days I stumble. I let the voice lead me. I let it write my story. Then I realize what’s happening and I take a breath, and take back my power.
I step forward into the light and embrace my future. Make my brand new ending.
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Special guest post today by Mindy Schroder who blogs at 'Ladybug Family' . Thank you for joining us here today, Mindy, and for your wonderful story and image.
Reader Comments (10)
It never ceases to amaze me - in this small community of ours - how we synergetically (is that a word?) connect. Your post today following Sue's yesterday - about facing our fears..about just taking the leap...just doing it.
Wonderful for you that you're getting a brand new start and chance to do again and over..and recreate the beginning of the rest of your life.
Beautiful image!!! Thank-you for joining us today..for being a part and sharing.
I had the same thought as Marcie when I noticed how your post followed on the heels of Sue's from yesterday, Mindy. Synergy is a good word. Synchronicity is another one. I totally agree with you that a move in location gives us a new chance at becoming everything we want to be...leaving behind the "stuff" that ties us down to old/bad habits. I wonder how many people experience what I do whenever I go back to my family of origin after many months away. I start reverting back to a personality I've outgrown. In fact, I've had spouses/friends say they don't even know me in those situations. Thanks for joining us here today, Mindy, with your image and post. I hope we'll be able to see/hear more from you.
Love the image, with the close-up lock and wood of the door and the reflection of the man in the window. great shot.
lovely post, thanks for sharing.
great photo and good for you! i am reinventing myself too with the intention of being more creative. we can do whatever we want you know. we forget that we are able to choose our own path.
I LOVE your photo, it is incredible. And your writing is wonderful and yes, face your fears, they might be yours but you don't have to sty friends with them. And I'm pretty sure you are not pretending, even though I understand that feeling. I think it looks like you are taking that step, a big giant one, and you might stumble, but you haven't fallen down.
I love your line "Make a new ending." I'm writing that one down in my quote book so as not to forget. I like the idea of reinventing myself, facing my fears, becoming the person I really want to be, instead of the person I am. Excellent post - so glad you've joined us here today at V&V. :)
That photo is beautiful, Mindy. Thank you so much for sharing your fears with all of us. It inspires me to do the same... follow your example.
with me, i think i use the waiting as an excuse...bordering on laziness and procrastination...i'll just wait another day. but you have stepped beyond that and opened the boundaries...well done you!!! fear is so debilitating but it strikes us all at various times. good luck, it sounds like you're creating wonderful things :)
Thank you very, very much for a much needed wake up call!!
As Marcie says many of our posts follow each other completely unintentionally. To grow we have to step out of our comfort zone, well done on deciding to do that.