It's all an illusion
January 26, 2012 * * * * * Posted by: Anyes 
All the lessons I am learning lately, have to do with how everything or everyone is in a transition stage. Whether the fresh snow melting under the sunlight within days of having fallen, or the season turning one into the other, they all are in a moving stage of impermanence. Interestingly enough I know now, change is the only permanent element I can rely on.
The complicated family situations, I have been confronted with this past Christmas back in France, were so hard for me to comprehend. I was refusing a change that was already well on its way. On the contrary faced with it, I still spent most of my energy refusing the transformation and fighting against it all. As a result my soul was left drained and hopeless. My body felt exhausted and I know jet-lag was not the only reason, my mind was churning around with all the "what-ifs, we-should-haves and how-come-we-didn't".
What saved me are you asking? Well first of all, I listened very intently to my inner whisper and took a blogging break almost right after coming back to Canada. It was hard to stay unplugged and I even felt very guilty for not keeping in touch with anyone. Yet as luck would have it the week I did not blog we had snow. A lot of it and I got to enjoy it all with Darling Daughter and Sweet son. We went out, slayed downhill, built a snow fort and I got my camera with me the whole time. The bright Winter sunlight replenished my whole being.
When I look at it now and understanding in my heart the illusion it all is, I feel peace and a stranger sense of contentment. I know it's out of my hand, that my only course of action is to be...just be. Writing it seems simple enough, and I am here to tell you it is quite a challenge for me.
So here I am today sharing with you my insights. In doing so I am hoping it will be of help to anyone going through the rough patches, life is sometimes throwing our ways.
Answers, inner whisper
Reader Comments (14)
Yes!...just be...just breathe. Everything melts away like the snow.
I sure hope you will feel better in the long run, and this sure helps me with my every day journey, thanks a lot for trusting us this to share, Anyes.
XO Chantal
I have been quite a few changes in my life and I have come to accept them but it's hard to let go of the what if and such. Focus on the positive things around you accept the things you can't change and live your best life every day.
This reminds me of the serenity prayer:
Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; the courage to change the things I can; and the wisdom to know the difference.
I - somehow - always find comfort in this. A sort of letting go and acceptance. Hope it helps you - too - along life's bumpy journey. Good to see you back here and writing again....:-)!
i just read what you wrote at your last post, Anyes:
...I am breaking free of these walls of self-doubt...
...Following my bliss towards a simpler life...
...Words and images are the tools I use to free my creative self...
And today you have written:
When I look at it now and understanding in my heart the illusion it all is, I feel peace and a stranger sense of contentment. I know it's out of my hand, that my only course of action is to be...just be. Writing it seems simple enough, and I am here to tell you it is quite a challenge for me.
It sounds to me like you have already gained many insights this new year, and we're not even finished with January!
Marcie, this seems like a conversation you and I could have had--thank you for your inspirational words, today especially.
What an awesome image!! I totally agree with all you said about change, it seems to be the only permament element in my life as well. I hope you keep embracing it all.
Hmmm.... Can't add a thing.
Wishing you all the best, dear Anyes. I see you're listening to your inner self... I'm sure you will enjoy what the days bring you, with your blog or without it... I like to believe that our life always tries to give us gifts, although we often don't see them this way when we get them, but after some days, months, years, when we look back, we see we've got something special, something that was prepared esp. for us.
Take care!
Beautiful image Anyes. Thank you for sharing your heart with us. It's tricky when you know it's all an illusion; that doesn't stop the mind and heart from doing what it wants and needs!
Blessings.
i will always say that karen blixen is my heroine, because of things like this: it was said about her that she lived life in colour - aware that the bright and light colours were as important as the shadows. or words to that effect, as I read them a long time ago and tend to forget! good that your inner whisper spoke loud!!
Our inner whisper always speaks to us of the right choices and paths. Sometimes we forget to take time out to listen and other times our energy is sapped by life which also means we are not listening to that inner voice.
Listening to the inner voice usually solves all the other problems.
Anyes, I've been following you on your blog and here and seen your recent struggles. I want to thank you for being so open and true to yourself, and I hope that you feel better soon. I can't really add anything else - you said all of it so beautifully.
sometimes that letting go is the best that you can do, the release can be its own reward. and you are so right, change is the one true constant. it's the accepting it that is the hard part. i join you in this quest.