Saturday
Jul142012
dazed & confused
July 14, 2012 * * * * * Posted by: Susan 
“I had nothing to offer anybody except my own confusion”
Jack Kerovac
That’s how I’m feeling these days, a bit unsettled and wondering what’s next. I know I don’t have to tell any of you how hot some of these days have been, everyone has had their share. I’m not sure if that has added to my present condition or not.
But it makes me want to be like this little guy and find a snug, safe and quiet place ... watch life unfold from a distance for awhile. Sometimes it seems like the world has tilted in an odd way and you just have to wait and hope that it rightens itself again soon. And to always remember that there is plenty to be thankful for.
Reader Comments (16)
Susan, after what you have been through and witnessed the past few weeks, I am not surprised that you feel dazed and confused. The tension is gone now, and I guess that only now does it really sink in what has been going on. And how lucky you have been and that things could have turned out a complete different way. I would be in the very same place emotionally where you are right now.
Look after yourself and Larry, take time for yourselves, I hope you will eventually find some normality again. I am sure it takes time.
Susan, that little critter says it all about your feelings...but things will smooth out with time. It's transient!
Love this image of this little guy all cozied up in his tree! Sometimes 'life' is just too wild a ride..and the only way to get thru it is to simply watch and wait and hope for things to change. The good news is - that it too shall pass...change will happen.
Hang in there!!!
After reading your post and then Carola's comment, I suddenly have tears in my eyes, Susan. I watched my condo building burn down in front of my eyes several years ago and can totally feel the trauma of your recent days, even though your own home was spared. I can't imagine the emotional devastation your entire state of Colorado must be feeling still, as the embers die down. The stages of grief surely come in myriad situations like this. My heart goes out to you and Larry...and your artists' community. I pray things will start picking up again and that life as you knew it will bring you out of your safety net. People all around the world have been "holding" you. Hang in there!
I didn't know, but i googled and now I understand why this picture reflects your feelings so well. All the best!
I loved the post on your personal blog about visiting Colorado and supporting local business; that the support is needed. I can only imagine the impact the fires have made ... and the domino effect. Yes, 'dazed and confused' seems a perfectly logical emotion at this time. Here's hoping for better days ahead.
Hey Susan! Been praying for ya'll during this trying time. Praying for God's peace to flood your heart, soul, and mind. Hope things are calming down for ya'll.
I didn't realize you'd been affected by the fires. After our experience last year in Texas, I certainly understand the unsettled feeling that lingers even after the immediate danger has passed. And what you say about supporting local businesses is so true. After hurricane Ike, there was a "mainland movement" to go down to Galveston Island to eat, buy gas and conduct other transactions, despite the higher cost. It was critical for helping them get back on their feet.
Apart from that, there are two very big smiles here for me. I had a pet squirrel named Smackers for eight years. He lived in a large aviary and had a log house that looked very much like this tree. How many times I'd go outside and see him looking at me, just like this.
And here's the best of all. My very first blog post was titled, "Dazed and Confused". Sometimes I think I still am. I hope very soon you aren't!
Hey there! Prayers for all of you. Glad you are thinking about what to be thankful for. It is overwhelming to experience the out of control parts of life. Be blessed and breath.
So much uncertainty, waiting on edge, and then seeing the devastation has to put you into some sort of shock - adrenaline and then the after affect of fatigue. I hope you soon go from dazed and confused to not normal so much as a new better.
That squirrel reminds me of the babies that were in the tree outside my kitchen window. So fun to watch them peek out and finally go explore the bigger world.
It must be quite scary to be there. Stay safe *hugs*
That kind of devastation is never easy to cope with. I hope you find some peace and equilibrium soon.
I hope you are feeling better today - as I sit here huddled behind my office desk, hoping no one will find me:) It is hot - when the cool weather hits, we can dance under the shades of the clouds.
Sometimes, all we can do is just that, hunker down and wait. What a scary, stressful time you have been through. Hopefully your world will "righten" itself very soon.
I didn't realize this either! So sending a big virtual hug your way!
You have every right to feel dazed and confused. It's often when things settle down that the enormity of what has happened hits us. How cute is that little guy peeking out from the tree? Awww. I hope things get better for you very soon.